My Fault - Uninvited - Silence
I guess, it seems, that it was always my fault.
Was I too drunk?
Did I get drugged?
How did this happen?
Waking up naked and exposed where I wasn’t invited.
But was I?
How was I here?
Just a few hours ago, I guess I “spoke my mind”.
Was this the real me?
How did I not remember?
But it was always my fault.
Never a moment to express my opinion.
I tried to apologize.
Was it really my apology to give?
I will always judge myself based on these assumptions of others.
Why is “I was drunk” acceptable for the other,
While it wasn’t the same for me?
I said, “what are you doing?"
He said, “what you wanted.”
I said, “what do you even mean?”
He said, “that’s why you invited me here.”
I said, “I just wanted to hangout…we can’t just be friends?”
He said, “just because you’re seeing my friend doesn’t mean you’re ‘taken'.”
I said, “Stop!”
He said, “Fine!”
He messaged: “I’d definitely respect a conversation tomorrow.”
I replied: “It started freaking me out that you continued to insist after I kept telling you ‘no’.”
He said: “yeah, totally understand. you made the right move haha.”
I saw your naked body last night.
You and me. Me and you.
I ran into you this morning.
I guess that never happened.
“Hello”, “hi”, “sup”.
It’s customary in some cultures.
But not here?
Am I embarrassing to you?
Is this a secret?
Do you think that if you greet me, we are betrothed?
I just want common decency.
Is that too much to ask?